Oct 17, 2014

He Is Enough

As our furnace goes on the fritz, a big virus attacks our computer, Scot's car has trouble starting, and I see cracks on our walls and windows - all I can hear in my head and feel in my heart are the words from Hillsong's Forever Reign song play over and over:

You are good, You are good
When there's nothing good in me
You are love, You are love
On display for all to see
You are light, You are light
When the darkness closes in
You are hope, You are hope
You have covered all my sin

You are peace, You are peace
When my fear is crippling
You are true, You are true
Even in my wandering
You are joy, You are joy
You're the reason that I sing
You are life, You are life,
In You death has lost its sting

Oh, I'm running to Your arms,
I'm running to Your arms.
The riches of Your love
Will always be enough
Nothing compares to Your embrace
Light of the world forever reign

You are more, You are more
Than my words will ever say
You are Lord, You are Lord
All creation will proclaim
You are here, You are here (gets me every time)
In Your presence I'm made whole

You are God, You are God
Of all else I'm letting go

Oh, I'm running to Your arms
I'm running to Your arms
The riches of Your love
Will always be enough
Nothing compares to Your embrace
Light of the world forever reign

My heart will sing
no other Name
Jesus, Jesus
Oh, I'm running to Your arms
I'm running to Your arms
The riches of Your love
Will always be enough.

He. is. enough.

Oct 15, 2014

Please Help Us With Our Foundation Repairs

Hello Family and Friends!

Scot and I have a huge foundation repair in our house coming up in November, and we need your help! We had to install 11 steel piers around two corners of the house for $11,000 last year. Now, we have to install 17 steel piers around the rest of the house, repair our support beams + add a sump pump under the house and fix all the interior damage to the house as well. The outside work is expected to be done the week before Thanksgiving in November and will cost us $19,000 - on top of the $11,000 we're still paying off from last year, totaling well over $30,000.

We are working 3 jobs between us and doing our best to make ends meet while supporting our little family of five, but these repairs are beyond our control. Whether it's prayer, support, or even a few dollars - we could use your help in getting us closer to our goal in making our home safe and sound!

Our fundraising site is: http://www.gofundme.com/ciancifamily. Will you be so kind to pass our site along to social media sites or anyone you know?

Never in our lives have we ever thought about or desired asking others for money, but we're learning it takes a real humble heart to ask for help from the body of Christ. God is good - even in all this - and we know He'll work through it all...

Thank you for your love and support over the years. We appreciate each and every one of you!

Oct 13, 2014


The best word to describe me right now.

Today was full of frazzled moments.

Texting our realtor friend for advice on our foundation repair.
Scheduling another home inspection.
Calling my mom and friend to ask for prayer.
Calling our homeowner's insurance company, attempting to "talk" to the automated lady with Connor crying in the background (never fails), getting transferred to three different departments before finally getting disconnected and then starting the process all over again.
Checking rates and availability with apartments "for rent" around town.
Taking the kids to the allergist for allergy shots after school and getting a steroid prescription for Jake's skin rash - finally! (While talking to the doctor, Connor refused to listen, proceeded to remove his rain boots and walk barefoot around the exam room. I mentally went to another place.)
Getting that call from our insurance agent and hearing him confirm there's no coverage for foundation repairs after all.
Waiting an hour for Jake's prescription to be ready for pick-up at Walgreens.
Driving around to pick up brochures for apartments.
Getting home and realizing I left my debit card in the Walgreens canister tube. Sigh.
Getting kids bathed and started browning meat for taco night...realizing we had no taco seasoning in the pantry. Sigh.

And then that crazy day last week -

Brooklyn was home for fall break and Jake was away at his dad's. I let Connor and Brooklyn have pajama day and watch movies one day at home. I was watching little A that day too and had to get a few things at Target. I wasn't feeling well and noticed I was a day late, so I added a preggo test to my cart just to make sure. In the checkout line, Connor started having a meltdown and little A got fussy as it was getting close to feeding time again. When the check-out lady mentioned how cute the baby was, Brooklyn piped up - "Oh, she's not our baby. She's someone else's baby. We're just watching her right now."

The kids have messy, dirty faces from eating snacks in the cart.
Trash is everywhere.
Kids still in pajamas.
Connor's barefoot in the cart (he currently has some type of aversion to shoes) and starts yelling, "I get outta the cart NOW, Mommy!"
Target employees think I've stolen a baby.
And I'm buying a home pregnancy test. Ha!

Finest mom moment yet. Sadly or happily (depending on which day it is), that's my life right now.

Thank heavens we're in the clear. ;)

Oct 10, 2014

Foundation Repair (Before) // Round Two

I thought I'd take some before pics of various cracks we have on the inside and outside of our house as we prepare for Round Two in our major foundation repair - hopefully, coming soon! Just a sneak peek into the crazy chaos around here. All $35K and counting...

Foundation Repair (After) // Round One
Foundation Repair (Before) // Round One

Oct 9, 2014

Pops' Homecoming

We left for Ohio on Thursday last week. The weekend was full of burials and services, family get-togethers and memories in celebrating our dear Pops' life and homecoming in heaven. It was a sweet, sweet time and I'll never forget it.

When my mom and step-dad got married almost 30 years ago, my sister Tiff was 11 and I was 7. (Lindsay was born a year later.) Mums and Pops had 4 grandkids at the time - all boys - and they welcomed us girls into the family with open arms. They played games and watched movies with us, cooked so many great meals for us, took us grandkids on various trips and vacations - always stopping at a state park nearby, hosted countless family celebrations at their house every holiday...

Pops was always smiling, always encouraging us. Giving the best bear hugs and telling us how proud he was of us in whatever we were doing. He was a quiet servant who loved Jesus and Ohio State football. He was a great man and will truly be missed.

Here's some memorable moments from the weekend:

The burial service.

Meeting 8-week-old cousin Rosie for the first time.

Crashing h-a-r-d each night.

All the Shindle second cousins - minus Rosie, Liam, Michaela and Tessa.

Spending time with Grandma Eller in her new place.

The memorial service.

Sweet moments with Mums.

Sweet moments before Chris, Lindsay + Rosie left.

And our last night there - Brooklyn lost her front tooth in her sleep! Thankfully, we found it safe and sound next to her in the bed, not in her mouth. :)

A great celebration. A great life to be honored. A great responsibility to keep sweet Mums in our prayers. 

(64 years is a long time to be married and then have your world turned upside-down, while suffering from Alzheimer's, too.)

Sep 29, 2014

A Big Load

My grandfather in Ohio passed away from leukemia on Saturday. He was 83. Poor Mums is doing the best she can do to get by without him, while dealing with Alzheimer's herself. Can't believe our beloved Pops is gone. We're sure going to miss him.

Jake has a bad skin rash that we discovered last night, more like was kind of hidden from us for the past month. (Gotta love tween boys, huh?) He is covered. Thankfully, the doctor said even though it looks like scabies, it's just a skin rash and is not contagious. With some steroid cream and a little eczema lotion, it should go away within a few weeks.

But, the kicker was the home inspection on our foundation this morning. Our back door stopped working recently, so we thought we'd get it checked out. Lo and behold, we will need to install another 9 posts to lift up our house which will cost us about $10,000 - not including the $11,000 that we paid last year and are still paying off. And the internal damages to repair all the cracks inside, like drywall repair, painting, etc.

Our hearts have ripped in two. We can't afford to live here. We are busting at the seams and running out of room. Yet, we can't afford to leave. It's seriously debilitating. So, so discouraging.

I know God has a plan, and I know He's got this covered. But, we are so tired and worn out from working our butts off and not even making a dent...just barely getting by. And since they can't start working on our foundation until December, it could shift further and get worse by then.

The sweetest part of it all - hearing Brooklyn's little voice at bedtime say, "Take my wallet. I want to give you and Daddy all the money I have because you need it way more than me."


Begging and pleading for God's mercy and guidance in our lives. It's a big load we just can't bear anymore.

Sep 26, 2014

All I Need

It's easy to get in a rut of things. Do the same thing over and over in life and not even think about what you're doing. What once starts out as an every-so-often luxury turns into an every day "must" - and before you know it, it's a full-blown addiction.

That's what my life has turned into over the last 20 years. I started out having one soda drink every now and then in high school. As an adult, I started drinking a soda every day at lunch. But, since I've become a mother 12 years ago, I've realized - with all the craziness and chaos, time-outs and tantrums, family time and overall busyness in life with three kids - the one thing I could count on to get me through the day was an ice cold soda, cup of chai tea, or insert here. (A brownie, cookie, a little chocolate...)

Have you busy moms ever done that, too??

Drinking soda or having a special treat became the focus and center of my days. What started out as something I looked forward to, suddenly became an idol to me.

Instead of giving God all the glory and power, I was giving it all away to something arbitrary - something that didn't really matter.

I have felt so convicted of this lately, and I knew things had to change. For my health. For my sanity. For my family. For my God.

I don't need food or drinks or something special to highlight my day. I need Jesus. His all-encompassing, all-forgiving, all-consuming kind of love. That's what's going to get me through. He is all I need.

Sep 22, 2014

First Week as a Nanny

Last week was my first full week babysitting little A. She started out having a little trouble taking her bottle from me, but now she's adjusted and eats and sleeps like a pro. 

Connor (so far) doesn't mind not being the baby anymore during the day, as long as he gets plenty of hugs and lovin' from mom. He is so sweet and gentle with the baby, and for that, I am grateful. Two in car seats, two in diapers - it's been a fun, busy week!

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